Monday, April 29, 2019

Writing the Hard Stuff

Guest Amy R. Anguish





Around sixth grade, all the kids in my class were required to read a book. I think the title was Grass & Sky, but don’t hold me to that since I seem to have gotten rid of my copy since then. The author was coming to our area, and we were all going to hear him. I liked the book until the very end. Then, a character died. At the end of the author’s talk, we were permitted to ask questions. I asked him why he had let that character die. He informed me that he had to. I couldn’t understand it, and I swore that if I were ever an author, I would never write something like that.
As I have gained maturity, I’ve changed my mind a bit on letting characters die. After all, Little Women and Anne of Green Gables wouldn’t be the amazing books they are without the deaths. There wouldn’t be that character growth in Jo and Anne. And we wouldn’t remember them as strongly as we do.
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I never thought I would write a story based on infertility. For a long while, I didn’t even want to talk about it. When you’re in the middle of something like that, raw and aching in a way that it seems no one else understands, it’s impossible to express to others why it’s so hard for you to be happy. My husband and I struggled with that battle for six and a half years before being blessed with our first pregnancy ... our now four-year-old daughter. We added a son not quite two years later.
As I went through the motions of surviving the day-to-day grief of not being able to have what I wanted most in the world, one thing helped the most. Finding others who had been there before me. As they shared their stories, it was like a light came on in my head. I wasn’t alone. Others understood. Some never even got their “happy endings” like I did. But you know what? Because they had been there before me, they could use what they learned and help me through my own battle.

And the more I thought about that, the more I realized that’s what I needed to do, too. 
Faith & Hope, my newest book, is one of the most personal stories I have ever written. As the title indicates, it’s about two sisters, named Faith and Hope. Faith is the older, and has been struggling with infertility for several years. A lot, though not all, of what she thinks and feels in regards to that is based on myself and a blog I kept back then. It’s not always pretty, but it’s real.
Since going through this myself, I have discovered so many others who also are fighting similar battles. I hope I can be to them what my friends were to me. And I hope that my story can help them fight their battles for a stronger faith even in the darkest valleys.
I reneged on my promise to not write about the hard stuff. I didn’t realize my character would suffer a miscarriage when I started plotting this story, but as I typed the words and bled the emotions onto the page, I knew it needed to happen. Because it’s real. And even though a lot of people read to escape (myself included), we also read to feel and to grow and to learn and to empathize. And if we never see characters going through what we’re going through, then we can’t empathize with them or learn with them or even relate to them sometimes.

Especially as authors who are Christians, it’s our job to not just give our readers fluff. There’s enough mindless entertainment out there already. If we can give people some meat, something that shows the characters struggling and overcoming, able to get through whatever comes their way because God helps them through it, then we’re doing something amazing. We were never promised an easy life, but we were promised that God would walk it with us. Shouldn’t our characters show the same?
The other character in my story, Hope, is dealing with her own struggles and worries. When the two of them are forced to spend a summer together, it’s a toss-up whether or not they can find a way to get along.  Through all the ups and downs of the hottest months in Austin, Texas, the sisters not only have to learn how to tackle their personal battles, but how to help each other with hers as well.
I won’t give away any more of my story. You’ll just have to read it for yourself to find out about the romance and fun.
But I want to hear. Have you tackled a hard topic? Killed any characters? Struggled through a scene you never wanted to relive, but knew you had to?

Today, Amy will be giving away a copy of her new release, Faith and Hope! Please let us know in the comments if you'd like to be entered.

Two sisters. One summer. Multiple problems. 
Younger sister Hope has lost her job, her car, and her boyfriend all in one day. Her well-laid plans for life have gone sideways, as has her hope in God. 
Older sister Faith is finally getting her dream-come-true after years of struggles and prayers. But when her mom talks her into letting Hope move in for the summer, will the stress turn her dream into a nightmare? Is her faith in God strong enough to handle everything? 
For two sisters who haven't gotten along in years, this summer together could be a disaster ... or it could lead them to a closer relationship with each other and God. Can they overcome all life is throwing at them? Or is this going to destroy their relationship for good?
Amy R Anguish grew up a preacher's kid, and in spite of having lived in seven different states that are all south of the Mason Dixon line, she is not a football fan. Currently, she resides in Tennessee with her husband, daughter, and son, and usually a bossy cat or two. Amy has an English degree from Freed-Hardeman University that she intends to use to glorify God, and she wants her stories to show that while Christians face real struggles, it can still work out for good.

Follow her at http://abitofanguish.weebly.com or http://www.facebook.com/amyanguishauthor

51 comments:

  1. Hi Amy:

    Killing characters is a challenging topic. A lot depends on genre and reader expectations.

    What genre would you call for "Faith and Hope"?

    In mainstream fiction death is more or less expected. In women's fiction it can also be expected. I'm thinking of Elizabeth Berg's "Talk Before Sleep" in which the death is essential. That book was so good that I immediately started reading it again when I reached the last page even though the tears had not dried. In romances death can step on the HEA and ruin the story as a genre romance.

    I read a romance where a hero I expected to be redeemed was killed off instead and his widow married a neighbor in the sequel. That was infuriating.

    In romanticism death is essential as often is unrequited love. La Boehme, La Traviata , La Dame aux Camélias, The Sorrows of Young Werther , Elvira Madigan, and Romeo and Juliette. I like romanticism but I know what I am getting. I know Tosca is going to jump to her death at the end but it's still great opera that I'll attuned again and again.

    All in all, I think it is best to play fair with your readers and don't give the cod liver oil just because it is good for them. What did Hemingway say? "If you want to send a message, use Western Union."

    Please include me in the drawing.

    Vince

    P.S. It still hurts, even after ten years, just to think about how Hope died as a child in Julie Lessman's Boston Daughters. No matter how well things turned out for Faith and Charity, there will always be a hole where Hope should have been.

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    1. Oh, Vince, that is a good point. That loss is real for readers as well as characters... Thank you for reminding us of that...

      And you know how I feel about tough subjects... Go get 'em, I say! But it has to be handled with the build-up of emotion prior to the darkness... and that unforgettable moment when Matthew Cuthbert died or Anne lost baby Joy.... I've never forgotten them, and love those books still... And Beth, of course, in Little Women...

      There's one other point here... with this new age of publishing, authors need to be able to distinguish themselves from the myriad of authors going indie or writing traditional (although the slots for traditional authors seem to be narrowing still) and sometimes going in from a different and skilled angle can set one apart... with so much competition in the marketplace, that might be a good thing. What do you think?

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    2. Vince, my publisher listed Faith & Hope as a romance, although I think it could also have been listed as Inspirational Women's Fiction. My husband pointed out that my stories tend to blend genres. But I agree. Killing just to kill is something I would never do. But allowing a character to experience pain like that often allows that character to grow in ways she could not otherwise.

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    3. Hi Ruth:

      The thing about dealing with explosive topics in a genre romance is that you really have to know what you are doing and how what you are doing squares with your readers' expectations.

      Now in your case, you are like a bomb disposal expert. You can deal with explosive subjects and pull it off, without setting it off, like breast cancer, unwed motherhood in the 1940's, and hospice. I think that these three explosive subjects also make for your best books. (cf. "The Lawman's Second Chance", "Red Kettle Christmas" and "Winter's End").

      On the other hard, I think some Indie authors, like L.A. Sartor, can stand out in a crowd by selecting exotic locations which traditional publishers would not buy because the target audience is too small to justify the marketing risk. I think this works well for L.A. in that hers are very good books and can thus build a good size audience over time.

      Unfortunately, some Indie authors try to stand out by writing on topics or strange plots that even their target audience will not like and this is a sure way to fail. These authors might say something like, "No publisher is brave enough for this story." This may well be true but that alone does not mean the publishers are wrong.

      Indie freedom includes the freedom to fail big time but at least with Indie books the author is gambling with her own money and not the publishers.

      Bottom line: Whatever you are writing brand it for what it really is, play fair with your readers, and don't preach!

      Vince

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  2. Amy what a pleasure to have you here! Good morning! And what a topic to bring on board... I fully agree, it's important for most of us to write the hard stuff and this is a biggie, isn't it? Infertility, child loss, death... I'm going to add divorce in there and critical or terminal illness... they bind us together but as you stated, it's important to draw the reader into the story with love... and let them ride the train along with Anne and Jo and the rest of us.

    Thank you for a great look inside a writing perspective. My first published book was based on a hospice nurse and a family she was working with... and my first published indie was about a childhood sexual abuse survivor, a book that's been sold and shared on Amazon tens of thousands of times... so I hear ya', sistah. I'm part of the choir. I love books with real people and real topics.

    Keep on keepin' on!

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    1. Thanks, Ruth. Man! Hospice would be rough for me. Our family just went through some of that with various members over the last few years. I think I might have to get a little farther out from those experiences before I could write about them.

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  3. Good morning, Seekerville. I will be popping in throughout the day, but now it's time to go chase my kids for a while.

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  4. Amy, welcome back! Thanks so much for your wonderful post. It's tough to write the hard stuff. You have to be open and honest and share your pain for the world. That takes a lot of courage.

    I've suffered two miscarriages but haven't yet braved sharing that pain. Maybe I will someday, though. You've challenged me. :)

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    1. The first time my dad read the manuscript for my book, he said, "You put a lot of yourself in this one." It was almost therapeutic. Even though I had never actually suffered a miscarriage, I was neck-deep in infertility grief, and the fear was constantly there. But it definitely took a lot out of me to write it.

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  5. Such a great post, Amy, and I agree with every word. I've always been more of an escape reader, but I don't like fluff that's too fluffy. Sweet and fun is fine, but life is hard and writing should reflect that to at least some degree. I love when the author has the perfect blend of reality, empathy, humor, and hope. Those are the kinds of stories I'd like to write. Thanks for being here and I'd love a chance to win a copy of this book. It sounds wonderful.

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    1. Thanks Glynnis. I agree. Fluff is nice, but there is definitely a point where it becomes too fluffy

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    2. I agree about having a balance, Glynis.

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  6. Amy, this sounds like a wonderful book and I can't wait to read it. I will admit that I like to read my share of fluff, but the heavier stuff, the real stuff, is what I remember longest and affects me the most. It's also the most difficult to write but some of my best writing. Thanks for being with us in Seekerville today.

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    1. Thanks so much, Cindy. I love my fluff, too. But like you, the deeper stuff sticks with me longer.

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    2. You know, I don't even know if "fluff" is a good term for books that simply entertain. Sometimes, people need to just be carried away for a while. I love books that do that and hope mine do that for people! :)

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    3. I once had a woman write to me to thank me who read during her long breathing treatments. That thrilled me to know it could distract her and entertain her for a while.

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  7. Amy, I'm so sorry you've walked the road of infertility. My husband and I grappled with this for many years also. I love how God has gifted you with two sweet children. I know God never makes mistakes, and that he uses the heartaches in our lives to help us better reflect Him to our world, but when we're in the middle of the pain, it's hard to see beyond it.

    Your book sounds like a great read! I am thankful God allows us to channel our pain and lessons learned into our characters. It sounds like you've done that well in this story.

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    1. Thanks so much, Jeanne. I have discovered there are so many more women who go through this than we hear about. I hope my book can help others see that and be more aware, too. Or even help someone know she's not alone in her struggle.

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    2. Jeanne, I, too, am thankful for how God can help us grow through the writing of our stories.

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  8. Thanks for sharing your thoughts Amy. I included a miscarriage scene in one of my books, using my own miscarriage (after infertility issues) for inspiration. I think adding such realism makes our fiction far more realistic and relatable. I had readers contact me later thanking me for including the scene, and sharing their own stories about similar issues. Sharing personal hardships through story is a little like when a pastor shares personal stuff during a sermon, and the congregation can better see the point and application. I pray that when we share our ‘stuff’ (naturally, not gratuitously) that God can use it to help spread His hope and healing.

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    1. Yes! This is our "pulpit" so to speak. Amen.

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    2. Carolyn, I love likening it to a pastor sharing personal things in sermons.

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  9. Hi Amy!

    I'm in the choir with Ruthy. Life is hard, but one of our privileges as writers is to show how God uses the hard stuff to bring our characters closer to him.

    I loved the picture you share of your Bible journaling in 1st Samuel. What a poignant image of Hannah...

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    1. Jan, thanks so much. I saw someone else do a similar drawing in her Bible and knew I had to add it to mine. It expresses so perfectly the way it feels.

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    2. Amy, I didn't realize you had drawn that! It's really moving.

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    3. Thanks Missy. Yes. I draw in my Bible. :-)

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  10. Hi Amy,

    I really appreciated your post today. I am currently working on a historical piece around occupied France during World War 2 and it touches on the holocaust as well. There is a lot of death, as we know from history. Even though the characters are fictional the stories can be very real to the events that happen. I think when an author can write the emotional journey in such a way that makes the pain and loss real for the readers it can be such a gift, albeit a painful one. It has made the stories I read that are like that eye-openers and relatable to the fact that as humans we all expereince pain. Thanks for sharing your post today!

    Your book sohnds so good! I can't wait to read it. Please include me in the draw!

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    1. Xenia, wow. That is such a sad, and yet inspiring time in history to write about. A lot of the books I have read set around then have stuck with me. Thanks for your comment.

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    2. Xenia, your story sounds like it would be powerful for the reader.

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  11. Such a wonderful post, Amy. Many years ago I struggled with infertility before God provided us with a family. I can also relate to your thoughts on killing a character. In my novel set in WWII such happened to good and noble people and sometimes members of our own family. In real life and in our stories, our Heavenly Father is able to use this tragedy to draw us closer to Him in our suffering. All the best with Faith and Hope.

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  12. Having gone through the loss of a "chemical pregnancy" (I'll never know for sure if I have another child waiting in Heaven for me until I get there), this sounds really relevant. Please enter me in the drawing. Thanks for sharing your heart.

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    1. Oh Lila, I am so sorry you had to go through that. Cyber hugs coming your way!

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    2. Lila, I'm so sorry you've suffered such a loss as well.

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  13. Lovely post, Amy. I've been eager to learn more about your story. Thanks for sharing both the story premise and the "story" behind the story.

    So many struggle with infertility these days. I wonder if abortion on demand and the disregard for human life make that struggle even harder to endure. I pray for all those women who long to be a mother...so hard.

    I'm sure your story will touch many readers. Thanks for digging deep and sharing your own pain, which brings authenticity to your writing, no doubt!

    Rejoicing that God blessed you with two wonderful children.

    Easter Season hugs!

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  14. Wonderful post, Amy. I, too, struggled with infertility. This came after losing my 17-month-old daughter. Four years later we were blessed with our now 24-year-old son.

    In the book I am writing, a town is destroyed by a tornado and one person is killed. It is a secondary character but the death deeply impacts her granddaughter who is a major character.

    Please enter me in the drawing. I really want to read your book.

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    1. Goodness, Sandy. I can't imagine that heartbreak.
      Your book sounds interesting! I have a manuscript somewhere with a tornado scene in it. :-)

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  15. Amy, I admire you for your willingness to share your story with others, because there are many women who are struggling with infertility. I pray your story will give hope those who are feeling hopeless. This sounds like an excellent, though heart-wrenching, story. And the Texas heat is enough to make even the most mild-mannered tempers flare.

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    1. Mindy, yes. That Texas heat can take a toll.
      Thanks so much for the prayers. That's what I am hoping for as well.

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  16. I'm heading out to have dinner with my critique partner! We haven't seen each other in ages. I'll check back in later!

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    1. We had the best time! Just got home. Spent over 4 hours together. :)

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  17. I love reading about the hard stuff as life is hard and messy. Thank you for sharing. I would love to read Faith and Hope. Blessings

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  18. Hi Amy, although I've not written a fiction book about my situation, I did write a memoir and it was incredibly difficult. If it helps one person, it was worth it. Your post today has made me think about turning my story into fiction. Thanks for the inspiration!
    Sorry you don't like SEC football - go DAWGS!

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    1. Edwina, my husband roots for the Georgia Bulldogs, too. :-)
      Sometimes, fiction can reach people where memoirs can't. It's definitely worth considering.

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  19. Thanks Amy for sharing your experiences with us. The only writing I've done about difficult circumstances has been for my eyes only, but it provided such a great outlet to work through my emotions to get to the core of the issue and to try to separate them from reality. There are some authors I've read who do a beautiful, and sensitive job, in writing the hard stuff - others, not so much. :) Blessings!

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